It’s 11:30am on a Friday morning.
I wish I could say that my day has been more productive.
I wish I could say that I booked 10 million clients, I cleaned out my entire inbox , I have blogged for the next year, and have cured cancer.
But in reality, I poured myself a cup of tea and I have been sitting here sipping and listening to the trees blowing in the wind.
It has been the most welcome escape ever.
Today marks one month since I moved into my new studio.
And it went by like that.
Leading up to moving into this new space I was a huge ball of stress. That’s a understatement.
My eye wouldn’t stop twitching, I couldn’t sleep, my heart was constantly pounding, and I am pretty sure my friends wanted to duct tape my mouth just so they wouldn’t have to hear about “the studio” anymore.
“Will I make it? Why should I do it? It won’t make me a better photographer”
“What if I am hit by a car and I can’t work?!”
“Rent is nearly three time’s what I am paying now!!! I’m not going to be hit by a car and unable to pay it and then my credit will tank and I will lose my house and end up living in a cardboard box next to Target”
Okay…maybe I was a little dramatic…
I’m a control freak. Now, that is an understatement.
This situation had so many variables that were outside of my realm of control. I had to put my future and my businesses future in the hands of a stranger. I was moving from something extremely easy to a situation where I knew I would have to bust my butt to make work.
It has been one month since I made the BEST decision I ever could have made for my business.
When I walk into my studio I know down at the very core of my soul that it was right. My new studio inspires me. It excites me. I look at out the window and I feel so completely at home.
If you had told me that I would have a boudoir studio in Downtown Norfolk five years ago when I had just started my business I would have told you that you needed to check yourself in somewhere. Having a studio was the furthest thing in my mind! I was so happy to just be able to make $300 from a session that I spent hours upon hours shooting and editing. The fact that this month has brought in over 30 times that has been the biggest sign that I am on the right path.
When I look at the experience I am able to provide for my clients, from the little things like having stylists there to pamper them or being able to give them a completely unique space to feel sexy in, I am blown away. I never thought I would be able to have regular clients, let alone be a full time boudoir photographer.
As I sip my tea this morning I reflect on everything that has led me to this point these last five years.
I can honestly say, I would go through all of the tears, the frustration, and the stress to be able to have the most amazing job I could ever ask for.
If you are struggling with a decision today, ask yourself, what is the worst thing that could happen?
Comfort zones never made for great stories.
Your fear is full of shit.
Nothing worth having is easy.
May 1, 2015